If I had cared to live, I would have died.
I didn’t give a shit, and here I am.
It’s like the world makes sure I get denied
And gives no fucks each time I give a damn.
Indifference always reads like confidence.
Auditions: Give a shit? I lose the part.
Wanting to please looks like incompetence.
Lovers: Show them I care? They break my heart.
Life sees I couldn’t care less, and gives more,
Like energy’s a scale that balance rules.
When I say I want in, Life slams the door;
Yearn for the verdict, I get judged by fools.
I’ll never lack a break for lack of trying—
But if I care to live, then I risk dying.
Copyright 2016 Matthew J Wells