After Pessoa

 

for Daleth Hall

 

How absurd is it that what hurts the most

   Is our regret for what does not exist.

We yearn not for the real, but for the ghost

   Of what was real—for what we lost or missed.

We long for things impossible, because

   They are impossible—which feeds our hunger;

We feel nostalgia for what never was,

   Reproach for what we never did while younger,

Desire for some great love that might have been,

   Self-pity because we’re not someone else,

And discontent with all that’s genuine—

   Like hating stone because it never melts.

      So does this baseless yearning make us feel

      Pain, entertaining what was never real.

 

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells

 



My Greatest Dream

You were my greatest dream.  I chose to be

   Love’s sleepwalker, and see only what kept

My hopes alive, not the dead certainty

   That it would not work out.  And so I slept

In the warm double bed of a sweet lie,

   And I convinced myself our love was true—

That intimacy was our battle cry

   And love a fête we were both party to.

If it’s one thing that I do well, it’s see

   Just what I want to see.  And when I woke,

I woke up broken—not by you; by me—

   And looked at who I was and saw a joke.

      Love still may send me someone to adore.

      I wouldn’t know.  I don’t dream any more.

 

 

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells

 

Indian Ink, or, Arcadia Without The Lectures

A lot of theatre critics bow down to the altar of Arcadia as Tom Stoppard’s best play—probably because its time-shifting structure is just smart enough to flatter their intelligence, without actually being the kind of smart that makes them feel dumber than the playwright.  (The kind, in other words, that always makes them write bad reviews.) 

And while there’s no denying the play’s heady intelligence, heady is exactly the right adjective.  Arcadia’s thrills are intellectual first and emotional second.  Does anybody in the audience actually shed a tear at the end?  You get a vision of the grand sweep of history (complete with footnotes), of things lost and found, but you don’t really mourn the loss of Thomasina.  (And thematically, isn’t it the point of the play that you shouldn’t mourn individual loss?) 

Indian Ink is different.  The smartness isn’t constantly pointing to itself and crying “Look at this, isn’t it brilliant?”  You get a vision of one woman’s life (complete with footnotes), of things lost and found, and you actually do mourn the loss of the main character, even though the set up, a time-shift between the 1930’s and the 1980’s, tells you right from the start that she’s a goner.  It’s a culture-clash story that is very casual and breezy, very conversational instead of rhetorical, but it has the potential to break your heart.  And in the current Roundabout production, it does. 

The plot is simple: female British poet journeys to India for her health, and along the way gets her portrait done by a local painter.  Two portraits, actually.  Out of this, Stoppard manages to comment on colonialism, cultural appropriation, the difference between a revolution and a mutiny, politics, feminism, sex, passion—you know, all that good stuff which never seems to make an appearance in modern American plays.  (Speaking of which, the sole academic in the play is an American, which—in British Playwright Shorthand—makes him the asshole.)  

The script has been touched up and tightened a little for this production.  The acting adds depth and reality to the cleverness of the lines.  Romola Garai plays Flora Crewe, journeying through India and writing letters to her socialist sister around the time of Gandhi’s Salt March. She plays the part so well that you will want to Google Flora Crewe to see if any of her poetry books are still in print.  Rosemary Harris, who plays the surviving sister, can do this kind of thing in her sleep—and because she’s Rosemary Harris, that never happens. And Firdous Bamji is superb as a painter divided between his love of English culture and his own national heritage.

 

And yes, the play is full of laughs, and no, it’s not Arcadia, but that’s a good thing, because in this production, it’s the one thing Arcadia isn’t: in the end, it’s moving.  It’s touching.  You really get a sense of loss.   And you’ll get a bigger one if you don’t see it.

My Flitcraft Moment - 10/4/14

10/4/14 - 215 Park Ave South, two seconds later

 

 

 

A stone façade almost killed me today.

   It fell onto the sidewalk where my head

Had been two steps ago.  One brief delay—

   Two seconds; three—and I would have been dead.

People around me cried out: “Jesus, guy—

   Are you okay?  You were just standing there!”

Part of me felt that dodged-a-bullet high;

   Another part sent up a trembling prayer.

And one part knew that Life, my constant friend,

   Had dropped its mask and showed me its true face.

And now I have a choice: I can pretend

   I didn’t see it, or I can embrace

      This mortal enemy—cold, cruel and hard—

      That hides behind Life’s affable façade.

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells

The Flitcraft Story from Maltese Falcon

Selective Vision

Love sees our faults with a forgiving eye—

   Even the worst of them can be excused.

The truth of Love makes everything a lie

   From being boring to being abused.

It’s not that Love is blind—it’s that Love sees

   From the perspective of a higher vision

That says: “Next to the forest, what are trees?”

   And soothes the mind to make the heart’s decision.

And when love fades, all it excused grows clear;

   And when love dies, all that it killed will live

Till every little thing we once thought dear

   Grows into monsters we cannot forgive—

      Unless we choose to always recognize

      Each other through Love’s charitable eyes.

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells

 

There Is No Future

The present is a cliff, the past a plain

   That rolls back east further than human sight.

As for the future, since there’s no terrain

   Ahead of us—only the dizzy height

Beyond which all is empty, lifeless, dead—

   This cliff is all that anybody knows.

To all who live and try to look ahead,

   The future never comes—the past just grows.

All those who breathed stood where we are today

   And died without anything getting clearer—

Feeling the present slide further away

   And the great unknown future come no nearer.

      There is no future: just what came before.

      Eternity is now and nothing more.

 

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells

 

Leave Her To Heaven - 7 Spoiler-Lite Thoughts About Gone Girl

See it with someone whose brains you want to unspool.

 

 

 

Ben Affleck is a great Nick because he’s Ben Affleck.  All the things people say they hate about Ben Affleck’s acting make him the perfect Nick.  They’ll claim he’s just being himself, or tapping into the inner Nick that his hate-fans have seen in everything from Pearl Harbor to Argo.  And his love-fans will rush to his defense, and in the end it really doesn’t matter because what he’s doing, either consciously or unconsciously, works for the character.  Except he’s all buff.  Not buff like a New York magazine writer, but buff like somebody who’s secretly a superhero (oh; right). 

 

Rosamund Pike is a great Amy because nobody knows who she is.  Unless you remember her as the Bad Bond Girl from Die Another Day, the pretty sister in the Keira Knightley Pride & Prejudice, Andromeda in the Clash Of The Titans sequel, I-forget-who in An Education, the girl in Reacher, and the girl in The World’s End.  In which case you’ve been waiting for her to hit it big for a good ten years now.  

 

Rosamund Pike is so obviously overdubbed it sounds like it might be someone else’s voice.  Seriously.  For half the movie, her vocal timbre screams SOUND BOOTH.  Whoever was in charge of ADR for this movie (there are three mixers, one looper and one editor—Gwendolyn Yates Whittle—in the credits) deserves a Razzie nomination. 

 

Drawbacks for those who have read the book.  Two, for me anyway.  The book goes into great detail about Amy and Nick’s personal histories, which makes them more then just caricatures.  The movie doesn’t—Nick’s Dad makes only one brief appearance, and Amy’s folks are bland and forgettable.  And one story of friend-revenge is eliminated, leaving only a history of lover revenge, which turns a character trait into a sexual trait.  That bugged me.   

 

The ending is the same as the book.  Me, I didn’t have a problem with it in the book, or the movie, mostly because I saw it as a homage to the kind of ending Jim Thompson would have given these characters.  But I also understand why the ending pissed a lot of people off.  (And we can have a spoiler-unfree conversation about this whenever you like.) 

 

It’s a roller coaster ride.  Even more than the book, the twists and turns come so fast that the film feels like an edited-for-theatres version of a ten-episode HBO series with a twist at the end of every episode.   

 

And it’s really really funny.  All kinds of funny: clever funny, crude funny (the wood line), sick funny, over-the-top funny, and (best of all) Tyler Perry funny.

 



Manhattan Sonnets - Autumn

Autumn is one big weather potpourri—

   It’s hot, it’s cold, it’s beautiful, it’s sucky.

We put up with its worst days patiently

   And will survive its best days (if we’re lucky).

September’s cold and then it’s ninety-five.

   October has two fouls for every fair.

November’s brisk and makes you feel alive,

   Then kills you with a blast of arctic air.

We take our shades off and put layers on

   As colors are all bleached out of the city.

Leaves go from green to gold to brown to gone.

   Dying has never looked so bright and pretty.

      Fall is the season where both life and death

      Are mingled in a single city breath.

 

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells

 

Only The Dead Are Perfect

 

Only the dead are perfect. We can see

   Beyond their end, and map the straightest trail

They could have taken to the victory

   Of all their dreams.  We never let them fail.

The land of Might-Have-Been has many stories,

   But none are tragedies.  We end them all

With happiness, with perfect love, with glories—

   Up comes the winner; down goes the wall.

It is the country where Would Have is king—

   Two words that rule the dead like Should and Must

Command obedience from everything

   That enters life as flesh and leaves as dust:

      The perfect dead, whom we still guide through strife

      To victories they never won in life.

 

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells

 

The Deal Breaker

There are some fights that I won’t pick with you

   And many lines that I will let you cross.

Frankly, there’s not a whole lot you can do

   To make me lecture you like I’m your boss.

You can be messy and I’ll clean up after.

   You can complain; I’ll always be your ear.

You can be all depressed; I’ll choke my laughter.

   You can be AA and I’ll give up beer.

You can love cheesy novels; I’ll write tripe.

   You can have head lice; I’ll be your shampoo.

You can do opium; I’ll light the pipe.

   You can kick babies; I’ll lend you my shoe.

      But I will gladly kiss goodbye to Cupid

      If you just once treat waiters like they’re stupid.

 

Copyright 2014 Matthew J Wells